I know I've posted my medical trials and tribulations on my journal frequently. I know there have been people worried that I may be self-medicating or skirting around the fringe of medicine because I truly am taking quite a few medications. I just wanted to maybe assuage some people's worry and set the situation clearly, and show that my doctors ( Read more... )

I posted this on a message board late Monday evening. I figured I'd save myself the typing and just paste it here:

I'm glad today is almost over. My primary sleep medication is one we fill at the hospital's employee pharmacy, and so my husband picks it up. Except he forgot to, so I was out last night. As a result, nary a peep did I sleep last night ( Read more... )

Tonight what is stuck in my head: The Rosie O'Donnell & Elmo version of the Christmas song "Do You Hear What I Hear*" over and over. Why, God, why?!

*which really is pretty decent, considering the potential for horror that was there. But over and over? Endlessly? When I want to go to sleep? No.

Tonight's stupid mental looping is double the fun! First there is the stupid and incomprehensible phrase "billing for haunting" which keeps repeating in my head. Then as an extra bonus, if I don't actively think about something else, I vividly imagine what it would be like to have a very sharp 1/4" drill bit bore into my eye. Over and over ( Read more... )

And now for another exciting game of "what is it this time?"
Let's spin the wheel and see what will be stuck in my head tonight... It's slowing down... it's stopping on--yes! it's stopping on Greta Van Susteren's name! Tonight's tedious Tourette's induced internal repetition shall be the name Greta Van Susteren over and over again. Oh happy day ( Read more... )

I've complained in the past about how things get locked into looping in my brain and how much it bothers me. I'm convinced it's a symptom of Tourette's Syndrome. It's not just like how some people get a song stuck in their head--I'll get a single word, or a sound bite, or sometimes even a visual sequence stuck for hours. Today I realized that in my ( Read more... )

Woohoo. It's 4:51am. I'm awake. I finished my book and started a new one. I took a bath. I did a little school work. I only have one dose of my sleeping meds left so I didn't take anything last night (tonight? I always trip up on how to word this), figuring it will be more important to be rested tomorrow (Tuesday), because I have to take Dominic ( Read more... )